A year of milestones. Some bittersweet and exciting to witness. Others, heartbreaking and overwhelming. The realization that the baby girl I grieve for would now be a little girl, ready for Kindergarten. I long for what might have been. The first day picture that will never be. While I grieve her absence I attempt to hold on with all of my might so as not to miss a minute of the boys who bless my life. High school, middle school and kindergarten. What a year it would have been, if only.